My stress level as of recent is so high that I don't think I can withstand it any longer. It seems too difficult to control it within the barriers. I'm afraid those barriers are going to explode soon. If you're asking me of a solution, I have no freaking idea, except hide in a shell, in my own comfort zone. The longer this prolongs, the more barriers will be broken. In order to avoid this from happening, I will stay put in my shell, where I'm protected by a large army of stone guards. 

Bah ... I shall keep this to myself. There's nothing I can do about it but sulk inside and pray that an explosion will not appear all of a sudden. Phew, I feel so much better now after expressing my emotions to you my dear bloggie. I feel a little burdened, yet guilty. Ah ... yes ... no one understand this strange feeling I feel inside except me, myself and I. May not make sense to you but it does to me. 

In short, I just wish things were so much easier, in order to stop my stress level from reaching a high level. I found the solution. Write your emotions down, play the piano, exercise and close your eyes and meditate. That's what I did and it worked. Totally worked. I feel like I need a vacation but I have work commitments. Oh I love my job, it's super duper fun. It keeps me hyper, excited, enthusiastic and happy. 

Alrighty, too loos for now. 

Hello blog :)

Time to update!!! Guess what? I have a job!!! I started two weeks ago and it's been great. I thank God for giving me this job, AMEN. I'm blessed to have my family, especially my mom, for supporting me, praying for me, and for having faith in me. I'm blessed to have my boyfriend always supporting me, believing in me and praying for me; encouraging me at all times. I'm blessed to have true friends who have been supporting me all this time :). 

The job is great. Although it may be challenging, it has changed me into a persistent and determined person. Yep, now I know what working feels like. It ain't like flowers that bloom, it has blooming flowers and hard rocks. But, I love my job. Ok, so what's this job I'm talking about hey? I'm working as a seminar producer. Basically, I produce seminars. I research the topic that I have been assigned to, of what are the issues that the public needs to be aware of, via phone - requires lots of patience, confidence, determination and persistence. After researching, I prepare the program and the outline of the seminar. After the program and outline are completed, I phone potential speakers and extend an invitation to them to participate in the seminar as a speaker. As soon as I get my speakers, I prepare the marketing copy, which is to be sent to the press to be advertised, and prepare the content of the brochures of the seminar. Pretty awesome don't you think? :)

However, I do face difficulties too. It's not easy recruiting speakers. Potential speakers mean experts. And experts are busy people. To be able to catch them, you'll have to think of a strategy. And you'll have to persist till you get. I'm quite amazed with myself that I can actually persist and persist. It's fascinating!!! I'm always afraid and I always fear talking to strangers, even on the phone. Yet, I'm always on the phone recruiting speakers and doing phone research =).

Till now, I haven't had a seminar fully produced yet. Yet, I'm amazed that I'm actually quite calm. I guess I'm growing up. It's the whole process of growing up :). I thank God for making me the person I am today. I'm blessed :). I pray that more blessings will come my way; e.g being able to recruit speakers easily. That's what everyone wants haha :).

I have faith in the Lord. I know he will help me. Because he knows I love my job and he knows that all I want to do is excel in my job. And God wants me to excel. He is the God who Provideth Thee, Jehovah Jireh and he is the God of Excellence :). Like T.D Jakes said, "If you want God to bless you more, there's gotta be challenges. You've got to walk through the road of challenges. At the end of that road, he will bless you more!!!"